~being a beach butterfly~

Monday, March 28, 2005

LIFE is RANDOM

I was in Civic Bus interchange waiting for about an hour for my bus to come. I braced myself for a long wait -- pulled my feet up and dug for my ciggies from the black hole that is my bag.

There's something about waiting for the bus that makes me pensive.. i always get random thoughts and sentimental musings. So as i was taking a drag from my enth ciggie.. a bus passed by with the advert from the new ipod shuffle with the tag line: Life is Random.

And I thought.. Life IS random. I mean if some person came up to me two years ago and told me that on this day I'd be in the Australian Capital waiting for bus 32 i'd have laughed at her and I'd have said something like "What the hell would I be in Australia for?! I don't know a single soul there and besides I happen to find the Australian accent funny!" *lol*.

But life IS random that way.. I mean I could have been in Belgium where I applied for Versailles University.. I could have seen Europe by now or I could be speaking French or Dutch or whatever they speak out there. Or I could have been in L.A. living under my aunt's roof (thank god i'm not! I looove not having to answer to anybody on a daily basis) going to uni in LMU or wherever.. Or I could have chosen to stay in Manila... where everything is familiar. but I didn't. I'm in Canberra. How random is that?!! Who would have thought I'd be living 3 years of my life here?! I certainly didn't. I haven't even so much as HEARD of this place before I applied to university here. (All the while I thought Sydney is Australia's capital.)

It reminded me of a quote from my favorite Aussie show The Secret Life of Us:

When you're walking along and you come to a
fork in the road, you choose without much thought. You think you'll take the other route next time, yet even at that time you know this is it. You'll never work that other path. This is the road you're taking.
(Jason)
This line nailed it. When we were presented with the opportunity to study here.. i thought "Why the heck not?!". I didn't realize that I was making a life altering decision and unwittingly disregarding the other options I could have taken. I chose this path without much thought and I could be living a totally different life that I'm living now.. but then I wouldn't have been able to experience THIS life. I happen to like this path.. and although I'll sometimes wonder what my life would have been like if I chose another route.. i know that THIS road is a road I would rather not miss taking.

I am still very uncertain about many aspects of my future. And if you ask me now what path I'm going to take after I've gone through this one.. I wouldn't be able to answer you.. but I know whatever route i choose to take.. it will all be alright.. as my favorite character in my fave aussie show said:

The future must be good.
It better be 'coz that's
all where we're headed after tomorrow. (Kelly)

beachbutterfly babbled @ 9:51 PM |

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: Name: beachbutterfly; Location: Canberra, Australian Capital Territory, Australia

i'm always on the verge of going somewhere else. Not one to settle, i've lived in 7 cities, 4 countries.. and well.. i intend to keep on counting. i live for travelling, shopping, making my parents proud, going to the beach, hanging out with people as insane as i am, boozing and ummm.. having the freedom to be the occasional bum

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